Why I.... became a pro golfer.

      I mean who does not want to become famous? I certainly like living in the spotlight, I don't know about anyone else. I became a pro golfer for many reasons. Obviously, I am gifted with the athletic capability to pursue this career. I am very good at the sport. And especially getting away with cheating.  I am very good at getting my way through and winning while doing it. If I didn't cheat, I wouldn't win as many things as I do. Also, let's talk money. I am making more money than I can handle. And who doesn't love money and being rich? I also chose to become a pro golfer because it does not require that much effort. Honestly, all it takes is some concentration. Otherwise, you just have to hit the ball in the hole in the ground. It simple and easy to do. It is also simple and easy money. Also, I love driving around in golf carts all day. I only have to stand on my feet for like two minutes. Other people are off working their butts off, sitting in chairs all day and what not. You see, I like the easy way out. I also like all the attention. It makes me feel good when people rush up to me and go "Ah it's Jordan Baker, the professional golfer!" I also get the pleasure of signing autographs, which makes me feel special. So yeah, that basically sums up why I became a professional golfer. 

What I was feeling.... when Nick and I ended things.

      Honestly, I was a bit salty and a bit hurt. I wasn't expecting it at all. I knew that I had just gotten engaged with someone else and I knew the end was coming for us, but I didn't see it like that though. I thought I was going to be the one to end things and let him down easy. I am usually the one that ends things with guys I am dating, not the one that has guys end things with me. He had asked me to get together so he could break things off with me. I wasn't expecting that because I didn't see a reason for him to break up with me. The only reason I could think of was that I was engaged, but he didn't know that until I told him. I guess it was kind of a mutual thing because I told him about my engagement and he told me he was planning on ending things anyways. It kind of made me feel bad about myself though. I didn't fully know the reason on why he really wanted to break up with me. It also kind of made me feel guilty for ending up with another man. Oh well, I guess, I didn't really see a future with Nick anyways. We had different lifestyles. I am a pro golfer making big bucks and he is a poor boy living in a little cottage. The future is bright for me and he is blocking my light. That was it, life goes on. 

What I was thinking.... when Gatsby told me he wanted Nick to invite Daisy over for tea.

      In my head, after Gatsby said he wanted me to tell Nick that he wanted him to invite Daisy over for tea, I knew it was a bad idea. Well, it wasn't that bad of an idea. I just knew bad things would come from it. I knew that once Daisy locked her eyes on Gatsby things would go downhill, fast. I meant for Daisy and Tom, of course. It is not like I didn't want Daisy to see Gatsby, I just didn't want all the drama that was to come. As soon as Daisy would see Gatsby, I knew it was game over. I knew things would change immediately. To be honest, I couldn't see Tom in the picture anymore. All I could see was Daisy and Gatsby, living in his huge house in West Egg. And to be honest, I could see Daisy happy. A happy, free, careless Daisy. A Daisy that I haven't seen in a long time. Thinking on it though, it would take a long time to get to that happy place. We still have Tom in the picture, their marriage, and their daughter. I may be getting to a head of myself here. Who knows what will happen at this little tea party. They may see each other, talk for a little, leave and never speak to each other again. So many scenarios were running through my mind, I just did not know what was going to happen. I guess only time will tell. 

Why I....didn't tell Daisy about Myrtle and Tom.

     I thought about it for a long time. Should I tell her or should I let it slide? What would her reaction be like? Would she be angry if I tell her or would she be angry if I kept it from her to spare her feelings? That was my thought process for months. I didn't want to be the one to tell Daisy about the relationship between Tom and Myrtle. Daisy probably figured it out on her own. I knew she knew about the phone calls twenty four seven and Tom driving to the city all the time to visit Myrtle. He would be gone for days sometimes. Daisy had to have known. I didn't want to be the one to break it to her and have her and Tom's relationship get ruined. That was not something I really wanted to have to deal with. The fact was also running through my mind that Daisy would probably question me if she knew I kept that secret from her for so long and didn't tell her. Either way, if I told her or didn't tell her I still would have felt guilty. If I told her, Tom and her would no longer be a married couple and I would have to deal with a sad Daisy for weeks, months maybe even years. I would also have been the one to have ruined their relationship because I tattle tailed on Tom. If I didn't tell her though, Tom would continue these shenanigans of his for however long it may last. Maybe if I let it run a little longer, the truth will eventually come out. 

What I was feeling....when Gatsby told me the story about him and Daisy.

    It all started five years ago. I was out golfing when I looked and saw Daisy sitting in the car with a man. A man with the name of Jay Gatsby. I have never seen Daisy in a happier state. Gatsby then went on to fight in war, while Daisy waited and waited for him. Gatsby wasn’t able to come back till much later, which broke Daisy's heart. Time flew by and then Tom came into town and swept Daisy off of her feet. They were married and that was the end of the story. Gatsby still doesn't believe that is the end though.

    Little did I know that what happened in the past still affects Gatsby today. The story of how it all went down surprised me. I was feeling sad and emotional when he told it to me. Gatsby was heartbroken when he found out Daisy went on the marry another man. None of the bad things would be happening in the Buchanan household if Gatsby was the one truly for Daisy. Heck Daisy wouldn't even be married to Tom or have the last name of Buchanan. It makes me happy that he is trying to still fight for her. Tom doesn’t treat her all that well and their relationship is falling at the seams. On the other hand, this story of Gatsby's was inspiring. His love and passion for Daisy is extraordinary. It gave me hope for them and my heart brightened up when he said he wanted Nick to invite Daisy over for tea so he could see her once again. 

What I was thinking....when Gatsby called me to talk to him alone.

     Standing there next to Nick, Jay Gatsby called me over to talk to him. Alone. I didn't see anyone else at the party Jay Gatsby was asking to talk to. Looking at Nick, I was confused as to why he wanted to talk to me. I walked away slowly and started to get anxious. I haven't seen the man in five years. I am still shocked at the fact that he remembers my name. Walking towards him and looking into his eyes I started to get nervous. I had so many questions building up inside of me. The last time I had seen him, he was in love with Daisy. Is he still in love with her? Is that why he is asking for me or is it something else? All i remembered what that he was in love with my best friend and she was deeply in love with him. Maybe he wants to talk to me about my golf career. Is he calling me in to ask about her and Tom's relationship? Does he know something about me that I don't know? I just wanted to know what this is all about! As I walked into a dark room, the door closed behind me and it was just me and Gatsby. He turns around and looks at me, he had bright blue eyes that lit up the room. The way he looked at me was not the way he looked at Daisy. I knew at that moment that what he was about to say had nothing to with me. It had everything to do with Daisy.